Well, D is a HUGE fan of XKCD (and a hardcore geek!) and once he send me a link there we can spend hours sending links back and forth, and more than once feeling quite identified with some of the silly images...

To be honest, it sort of does describe me at my silliest times...

I am quite prone to dramatic statements when I'm feeling lonely and miss him more than usual, so the comic is quite accurate...

Sadly for D, those moment happen quite often... ;-)

The wedding will be small, and on the cheap side... I mean, we do have to prepare for me moving there eventually and I have to get my visa sorted out after we get married and any other
expenses that will come with time...

So the plans have gone from normal wedding to teeny wedding to cheap/cool wedding...
I kinda daydreamed with a huge dress and a ridiculous wedding and it's a bit sad to part with all those childhood fantasies, but to be honest, I don't mind anymore; in the end all that matters is that we will finally be together.
We will pay for it ourselves, and we have to be sensible and try not to get too over our heads which is really hard because it's so easy to get carried away when you see, hear, google so many beatiful wedding related things...

Thankfully I'm very crafty and I can't wait to start making my own little details for the wedding... And just to prove how very excited I am, I've started buying supplies for the decoration and for the invitations... I probably shouldn't have, but my mom gets restless and wants me to start working on it...
But now that I have them I can't help but wonder if I'm getting ahead of myself...

I totally love these Doily Envelopes, they look so delicate and could be made quite cheaply... But now that I have the doilies, I keep thinking that I will have to remember that I can't look at any other kind of envelope and like it even more, because I already have the supplies. I have a very rough but clear idea of what I want for the wedding, but it feels like the planning is all over the place...

Meanwhile D, is halfway across the world just being shown bits and pieces of what I want... I won't lie to you, I want him here desperately... I don't want to this by myself... But I have no choice...

How do I get my rather annoying fiance to want to be a part of it... I mean, any man would kill to have the chance that he has... not being really involved in his own wedding... No venue hunting, or flower picking, or cake tasting... Just showing up when the time comes and saying I do...
Feeling a bit discouraged lately...

Well, it's 4:59 am and I'm awake... That sounds like a very good reason to me! :)
I have 10 months and 30 days to plan this wedding and it suddenly sounds like so very little time.
D is in England and I'm halfway across the world, in Honduras... How does one manage to plan a wedding when the other person is not there to stop you from panicking when things feel like they are way too big for you to handle...
I honestly have no idea...